Becoming Claire

DipVai

11/18/20242 min read

I used to think life was a straight line—a series of predictable steps. Graduate, get a job, settle down. But somewhere along the way, I realized I didn’t know who I was or where I was going.

My name is Claire, and for most of my 24 years, I’ve been the girl who did what was expected. I was the dependable daughter, the straight-A student, the one who always colored inside the lines. But after graduating college with a degree I wasn’t passionate about, I felt like I was living someone else’s life.

It hit me one morning as I sat in my cubicle, staring at the same spreadsheet I’d been working on for hours. My colleagues chatted about their weekend plans, and I realized I didn’t have anything to share. My life had become a routine—a dull, unfulfilling rhythm.

That night, I called my best friend, Emily. She was the kind of person who chased adventure, who wasn’t afraid to take risks. As I vented about my stagnant life, she asked me a question that changed everything.

“Claire, what do you want?”

I didn’t have an answer.

For weeks, that question haunted me. I started journaling, hoping to uncover what I had buried beneath years of people-pleasing and societal expectations. It wasn’t easy. I had to confront parts of myself I’d ignored for too long—the fear of failure, the pressure to conform, and the quiet voice inside that longed for something more.

One day, while flipping through my journal, I stumbled upon a recurring theme: my love for photography. It had always been a hobby, something I did in the background, capturing fleeting moments that others overlooked. But I’d never considered it a viable path. It felt impractical, risky, even selfish.

Still, I couldn’t shake the feeling that photography was more than just a pastime. It was a way of seeing the world, of telling stories without words.

So, I made a decision.

I started small, dedicating my weekends to exploring my city with my camera. I captured the mundane and the extraordinary: a barista’s focused expression as she crafted a latte, the way sunlight filtered through the leaves in the park, the quiet resilience in the eyes of an elderly street performer.

The more I photographed, the more alive I felt. Each image was a reflection of how I saw the world—a world that, for the first time in a long time, felt full of possibility.

Eventually, I began sharing my work online. At first, it was terrifying, exposing such a personal part of myself. But the response was overwhelmingly positive. People connected with my images, seeing their own stories in the moments I captured.

The turning point came when a local art gallery reached out, offering to showcase my work in a small exhibition. It wasn’t about fame or recognition; it was about validation—that my voice, my perspective, mattered.

Through photography, I discovered more than a passion. I found confidence in my ability to chart my own path. I learned that life isn’t a straight line but a series of twists, turns, and detours. It’s messy and unpredictable, but that’s what makes it beautiful.

Today, I still don’t have everything figured out, and that’s okay. I’ve learned to embrace uncertainty, to trust that each step forward, no matter how small, is a step toward becoming more of who I am.

So, if you’re feeling lost or stuck, ask yourself: What do you want? It might take time to find the answer, but when you do, it can change everything.

For me, it led to a life I never expected—a life that feels authentically mine.